Mak Ngah.;(

Dear all,
Please extend a prayer for the departed soul of my aunt Mak Ngah who left us on Monday. May her soul be placed amongst the pious ones. Innalillah.


My family is diminishing.;(



For all these tests God gave, there are blessings. I lost one friend, I gained more. All these enemies I made, are now my friends. Alhamdulillah.

I want to sleep in peace.

My doctor told me in order to be able to be at peace, I must clean up my soul and confess previous sins. and suchI have previous sins that have been hitting me like bricks lately. I want to confess them,and clean up all the guilt I have felt all these years to be able to sleep peacefully,knowing I have confessed.

1. Vanessa Kose Sabah, I am sorry for making stories up about your best friend the Kose Counter girl in Centrepoint telling me you are not a good beautician. I was 16, and I do not know why I did it. Maybe for attention, or being a drama queen ? After that you do not want to accept me as a customer, which is my loss. Thank you for everything. Relatives or friends of Vanessa and this counter girl, please extend my apologies.

2. My Cousin Kak Long Na, thank you for introducing me to your friend Louise from Uk who is your best friend from your yesteryears. I however ruined it by emailing her the second time and telling her that you and my other cousins are pious people and I do not like that. I am sorry for being a bitch.I was 11 and I do not know why I did it. Looking back, I know you know, so I can totally accept your hatred towards me, because I am a bitch and now I feel at peace because I accepted your hatred and your mom's as justified.

3. My Sejarah tuition teacher, Im sorry I moved to Sabah without paying your RM 50. The truth is, I have already paid but you forgot.However, since you are my teacher and I do not want my knowledge to be tainted, I think I am obliged to pay you. I never forget to pay. Puan Noraini, if you or your relatives are reading this, please, I never forget. I will pay again although I have paid. Because you are of the opinion that I haven;t and I do not want to be on your negative side.

4. Andy, I am sorry I cheated on you. Im sorry, you are a nice person. I do mean it when I said its not you but its me. I never deserved you and sorry for still selfishly wanted to be friends. I understand now while all the guys I dated turned out to be jerks. They are payments of my sins to you. Im sorry Andy.

Looking back, I realized I have moved on but these things are justifying the negativity I received and the horrible things people do to me. If I can do these and God still gave me a chance to repent, who am I to deny forgiveness to people who do me wrong ? I forgave all of you and I ask for forgiveness from all of you. I shall nto hold grudges even when I cannot be friends and start over.

I feel a little better after confessing this. I am always truthful to my blog and I never will pretend . At least I have the guts to confess.;)

Goopy Gaga.

Criticism aside, I am so vehemently addicted to GOOP by Gwyneth. She provided amazingly useful tips that can be applied to all to live healthily and such and surprisingly,( sorry no judgments about Hollywood types) her tips are affordable and applicable to us mere people. She is amazing, and I love love her recipes as theyre quite easy and found out the easy way to avoid being frumpalicious. I know appreciate my mom's neverending efforts in turning us to organic lovers.
After giving up red meat for good, my mom and I had trouble substituting, making us cheat every now and then. With tips from Gwyneth, I guess we will never have to cheat again!

I totally understand why she feels the need to stay healthy after losing a father to cancer. Since diagnosed by tumor,I have always try to resort to a healthy lifestyle, even in the midst of cholesterol laden Melaka. ;) Enjoy Goopy !

They Made me who I am .

I want to share pics of my nieces and grandma with you all,courtesy of my cousin's fb.Lovesit.

From above : Grandma and cuzzy, Najihah, Najihah at 2, baby Maysarah. Aaqilah sorry !! Cik Nad will post ur pic later ok @@@

19.04.1987

Happy Birthday to Ary, Net, Amir Nasir and of course myself ! We are all almost siblings ! Well,mine wasnt a grand event or anything,as I was busy with assignments and had a tough time therefore I just spent it with family at TGIF and ate like a whale. It was nice, albeit quiet. Thanks a lot for the wishes and presents ppl! Oh, and up there is the present from Andy, and it is soo me. Thanks Andy, people now will know me as the girl with the Chloe scent. Ha-ha !

Oh, while I was in Pavi,I met Kak leeds who is sooo much skinnier than her pics ! Her waist is sooo tiny !!! Kakak, Im not like an anak mat salleh,maybe anak jawa. Hahahaha..


I am now 22,single,clueless and crazy.Fantastic !

How to Deal with Losing a best Friend.From Wikihow.

How to Deal With Losing a Friend

Losing a friend can be really tough, especially when it is through no fault of your own. Even though you might feel sad, realize that it's not the end of the world. You will get over it and you will make new friends.
Steps

1. Take time to mourn over your loss. This is a big change in your daily life to not have that friend as a part of it. Cry, scream into a pillow, shout, hit the pillow, play the music at its loudest possible. Do whatever it takes to get the sadness, rage, anger, disappointment etc. out of your system. Let it out so that you can move on from these destructive feelings and so that you can cease to harbor negativity that you will continue to carry if you do not release it.
2. Find a new hobby, activity or regular social event. Don't sit around and sob incessantly. Do something proactive and lively to distract your mind and soul. Quit moping and resume your path in life. Go shopping, treat yourself to an ice cream at your local restaurant, or go and play a sport. Take up a hobby or set yourself a challenge, such as a 5000 piece jigsaw or beating the computer at a game of chess.
3. Join a club. You will meet lots of new people and get heaps of new friends instantly.
4. Find a new friend. There is always someone new. Talk to people around school, college, work or your neighborhood. Talk to people that you have never really talked to before and you may be pleasantly surprised. Be nice and friendly, but don't be overly friendly the first time you approach them. Just go up and say "Hi" or something, and try to act casually. If you start talking to each other, don't act too eager to be friends too quickly. Just be yourself and stay casual. And take it calmly and slowly - simply because you have lost one friend doesn't mean you should rush out and find another replacement. Friendship develops over time and needs careful choices and good tending.
5. Avoid spending time thinking of ways to make your former friend jealous. This will only make you look sad and desperate and it only ever rebounds on yourself. Revenge fantasies might amuse your sorrowful side but they are a pure waste of energy and dig a deeper level of sadness and inaction for you. See step 1 again if you find yourself falling into this trap.
6. Keep a casual relationship with your former friend. When you see your former friend around, don't be sour or nasty. If he or she talks to you, don't ignore your former friend. Just say hi back and if you still don't want to have a long conversation, be polite and just excuse yourself. Having an appointment or a homework assignment to complete are good enough excuses.
7. Don't spread rumours about the person, or talk about them to everyone. Nobody will want to be your friend if they discover that you talk about people behind their backs.
8. Smile! Find things to smile about. Do something for someone, raise money for charity by doing a sponsored run, do things that make you happy again. Realize that you don't need this person to make you happy, and it is not the end of the world now that they have gone. It is one of life's lessons and there should be a kernel of wisdom in what happened for you to learn from.
9. Get on with your life. This is the most important lesson. Don't stop going out with other friends, or take it out on them. Carry on as if everything is normal, and it will feel normal. Soon you will forget all about this person, or at least, be able to think of them without bitterness or sadness.
10. Remember that with every ending, there is a new beginning. That means, there's time to get your life going in the direction you want. Pamper yourself and hang out with new interesting people.


Tips

* Don't let this friend know that you are upset because then he/she might think he/she has won. Or, your former friend may simply be irritated to think you still harbor a desire for friendship with them and may be provoked into spreading malicious gossip about you.
* If you are nice to everyone, everyone will want to be your friend!
* Don't let this person think that you are letting yourself go because you two aren't friends anymore. This is immature and self-destructive behavior that only impacts you and your future prospects for other friendships. People do not turn around and rescue wallowers, so try not to hold on to such a fantasy.
* Stay strong! If what this person did was bad, don't accept them back as a friend. If he or she begs or promises to be a good friend, stay firm unless you think this person has really changed or you feel it would be wrong not to. Don't be weak, you will just look and be treated like a doormat!
* If it really will, then make friends with them again. If the fight was silly and you feel it was, it is possible they are too. Start out by apologizing a few days after the fight and then leave them alone. Do not retaliate. If they say no, you will know you did everything you could.

Tina Parol.

My Next katy Perry. Love her millions. ;)

Thank you for reading my blog.

Im always truthful to my blog.Did not mention your name, no element of slander. Been knowing for years, just want to bury the hatchet like I did.

Dear God, give me strength to pass this extremely trying time. Give me all the patience I need, and all the happiness in the world to last me till I see the next sunrise.

Good riddance.

Sometimes friendships have its datelines.Just like any products or relationships, it can run out of its course. The sad thing about this is, with so many memories and intimate moments shared,maybe for years, suddenly things have come to an end. It is sad,even sadder with my birthday just around the corner, and not being able to celebrate it with someone i loved most and i thought loved me too.

I shall not name you,but I guess I am always truthful to my blog,and to clean up my closet I have confessions. So i can never look back, I just want you to know that I know you told some people I am not a virgin, and you said you heard it from my ex. Why did you not come to me, instead telling it to everyone in the world but me ? I was hurt beyond prediction when I knew. But, since you are my best friend,my cuppycake or so I thought, I decided to forgave you,or tried to. But,I guess my sacrifice is worthless.

True, i slammed the door to your face and yelled at you because of a guy, and true,I yelled at you twice because of a guy. That will be my regrets for life.Im not saying I am without fault.If those things made you did what you did,Im sorry and hope you will forgive me.But you accused me of being sexual,which is private even before that. You want to talk about respect ? Consider how much I respect you,after what you did. Can you do the same in my position? guess not. I door slammed and two yelling, and you have issues.Me, I have to face people talking of my closed door activites behind my back.

I simply turn the last straw when you got mad for me forgetting about things I owe.Im blur,when I asked your roommate for explanation u guys did not tell me. If im to be blamed,to be given the drama in front of ALL OUR CLASSMATES then I guess thats my cross to bear.But i never will allow myself to be blamed for something I did not do and to say sorry for things I should not be sorry of.I think compared to all the accusations about me not respecting you,saying I just want to be your bff for titles, what you did is much worse.

Maybe you should hook up with him,since he liked talking to you and you liked being friends with him. At least,you know how a boyfriend takes over your entire existence and as a bonus,you can get back at me. Think of how hurt I will be. You blamed people for being strangers,true we should not allow boyfriends to take over,but sometimes these things happened without realization. Maybe you should get with him,so instead of calling ppl mere strangers,and thinking bad,you will finally realized the beauty of being in love.

You shall not be alone, you have your roommate that you loved so much,right ? Take care and have a good life ahead. I shall treasure everything.Thanks for all uve done for me, I really appreciate it. can never be repaid.

p/s : I was never jealous when I asked you to eat. Im worried you turned anorexic. Honest.

cry.

Crying relieves you of pent up emotions. It reduces the stress levels. We cry for various reasons. Most of the time we cry when we are sad. But tears also flow when we are happy. It is good to cry. Why so?

Why Crying is Good?

* It relieves you of your tensions
* It manages stress
* Form of communication. One can express one’s feelings through it
* Conveys love for another person. It brings people closer. We cry for our loved one. A baby cries for its mother
* Crying helps you get over a hurt. By crying, you forget the seriousness of the event
* Crying indicates deep feelings. It can reflect anger or happiness
* It releases frustrations
* Crying is a safety valve to pent up emotions
* You feel relaxed after a good cry
* Crying cleans the eyes. Dirt is removed
* It reduces blood pressure. Since your are relieved of stress, your blood pressure levels come down
* Crying can also indicate some illness. When you are in pain you cry
* Crying can express what words cannot

Crying is generally considered to be a negative emotion, but it has its benefits too. Shedding tears relieves you of your worries. People cry when they are hurt or in love. The feelings vary from individual to individual. It is normal to cry.

Celebrities do eat!

p/s:I had fun with wina n rashid. Friends never fail to make life pretty.;)

Sobbing.

Tuan Adzmeer, get well soon. Please everyone, im down on bended knee asking you all to pray for DPP Tuan Adzmeer who is in the hospital now, recuperating from what might be stroke.

Tuan Adzmeer..get well soon...my prayers are with you..;( eventhough ur really strict during my training..i really really do get along with u..get well soon Tuan..;(

Sobbing.

Tuan Adzmeer, get well soon. Please everyone, im down on bended knee asking you all to pray for DPP Tuan Adzmeer who is in the hospital now, recuperating from what might be stroke.

Tuan Adzmeer..get well soon...my prayers are with you..;( eventhough ur really strict during my training..i really really do get along with u..get well soon Tuan..;(

Recession.

1.I want that Topshop Cancer Monochrome tee, because I support Cancer Research and I want that TEE!!!

2. Aliff, when u return, can you like get me the Aesop set?? How come Im suddenly addicted to organic brands and the ones here somehow lack the Ozzy shopping experience ?? Cepat balik,but Sept.is too long lah !Stop begging me to go there jugak,I cant find the time !


3. Kak moon, thank you. He is everything I ever hoped for.But no rush laa ek ? ;)


4. You, I hate you. You know why. Thank you. I hoped you died on the way here, but I guess you didnt. Oh well,maybe next time. No, I wont tell your friends. Im not like you. Nora Danish is so my idol now.

5. Notes to self : 1.Nadia study lah, friday is comp.law midterm !
2. If you are not a nice girl,how can you get a nice boy ?



p/s : Sadly, Stila is closing down. So go grab your stila items and discounted mayjah prices now. Lovesit.*Cry*..Cannot resist visiting this site.;)

For all those so called Urbanites Malays.

Taken from Chedet.


ORANG ULU
By
Dr. Mahathir Mohamad
on February 11, 2009 3:05 PM | Permalink | Comments (734) | TrackBacks (0)
1. Waktu saya kecik lebih kurang 70 tahun dahulu saya sering jumpa orang ulu (bukan suku kaum Sarawak), tapi orang ulu Kedah.

2. Ada yang terdiri daripada adik-beradik Mak saya. Ada Tok Karin (loghat Kedah - Kaghin), Lebak, Din, Mak Chah, Mak Bedah, Mak Doh. Orang pekan anggap orang ulu ini agak kolot dan lekeh. Mereka jalan kaki, naik perahu untuk ke pekan Alor Setar (Aloq Staq). Tak pakai kasut pun.

3. Bahasa mereka juga lain daripada bahasa kami orang pekan. Sesungguhnya mereka tak tahu apa. Bawak buah sikit, padi huma, beras pulut, sebagai buah tangan. Kadang-kadang mereka tidur di rumah tak perlu katil, hampar tikar sudah cukup.

4. Di sekolah Inggeris ramai juga anak orang ulu belajar bersama saya. Mula kekok sikit tetapi cepat faham dan guna bahasa Inggeris. Nampak tak bodoh sangat orang ulu ini. Kadang-kadang lulusan lebih baik daripada anak orang pekan.

5. Saya ke universiti. Budak Melayu tak ramai. Tapi di antara mereka ada juga anak orang ulu, terutama di Fakulti Sastera. Lulus Bachelor of Arts (B.A. - Sarjana Muda Sastera) mereka sertai Kerajaan, ramai di Kementerian Luar. Jadi second secretary (setiausaha kedua), first secretary (setiausaha pertama) dan kemudian jadi duta.

6. Boleh juga cakap orang putih dengan orang putih, anak orang ulu ni. Boleh berhujah dan bergaya sebagai Pak Duta.

7. Sebenarnya ramai anak orang ulu yang belajar sehingga dapat Phd. (Doktor Falsafah) di universiti luar negara kembali jadi pegawai tinggi Kerajaan.

8. Sekarang anak orang pekan pun susah nak kerja di luar negeri. Tak suka cocktail party kerana segan nak bercakap. Orang asing nak cakap bahasa lain, kerap kali guna bahasa Inggeris. Tetapi ini bukan masalah. Yang jadi masalah di cocktail party orang minum arak. Sebab itu pegawai tak suka pergi cocktail party.

9. Yang suka pergi cocktail party pegawai bukan Melayu. Mereka boleh bergaul dengan orang asing, bercakap dengan mereka bukan main fasih lagi, dan sudah tentu minum arak. Tetapi berguna juga mereka kerana mereka dapat dengar dan faham pendapat duta-duta asing.

10. Nampak sekarang sama saja - anak orang ulu atau anak orang pekan. Dulu kedua-dua boleh, sekarang kedua-dua pun tak boleh.

11. Pada pengalaman saya sejak 70-tahun dahulu, anak orang ulu ada kebolehan, tak kolot, tak lah lekeh sangat. Bila diberi peluang boleh buat. Anak kawan saya, Hassan Nawin (orang ulu dalam kelas saya) jadi pilot Boeing 747. Ada yang jadi doktor, pakar bedah, peguam, duta dan macam-macam lagi.

12. Rupa-rupanya mereka tak begitu lekeh. Janganlah perlekeh orang kampung, orang ulu dan orang luar bandar. Mereka boleh, kalau diberi peluang. Kalau tak percaya, buat kajian. Yang pegang jawatan tinggi, yang cakap bahasa Inggeris macam orang Oxford siapa? Ramai juga orang ulu.

13. Saya sendiri tak mimpi jadi doktor. Zaman saya di sekolah, doktor Melayu yang saya tahu hanya Doktor Arif, Pulau Pinang.

14. Tetapi saya dapat peluang, dapat juga lulus sampai jadi doktor. Kita serba boleh. Tetapi kalau orang sekat peluang saya mana saya nak tahu saya boleh atau tidak.

15. Demikian nasib orang Melayu bandar dan luar bandar. Dulu Mat Salleh (orang putih) anggap orang Melayu bodoh, tak boleh pegang jawatan. Sekarang orang Melayu sendiri anggap Melayu kampung bodoh.

16. Hai lah nasib!

Of The Record.

If you're not ready for a relationship, do not even bother starting it. Because when you end it like a jerk, the perception remains. Lovesit !



Currently listening to : britney spears- shattered glass.


p/s: Will change song soon, the blog song is getting annoying. I have Twitter so im officially a Hollywood crowd hahaha

Bottled Plastic and Cancer.

From Johns-Hopkins: Bottled water in your car is very dangerous! On the Ellen show, Sheryl Crow said this is what caused her breastcancer. It has been identified as the most common cause of the high levels of dioxin in breast cancer tissue.

Sheryl Crow’s oncologist told her: Women should not drink bottled water that has been left in a car. The heat reacts with the chemicals in the plastic of the bottle which releases dioxin into the water. Dioxin is a toxin increasingly found in breast cancer tissue. So please be careful and do not drink bottled water that has been l left in a car.

Pass this on to all the women in your life. This information is the kind we need to know that just might save us! Use a stainless steel canteen or a glass bottle instead of plastic! LET EVERYONE WHO HAS A WIFE / GIRLFRIEND /DAUGHTER KNOW PLEASE!

Experts suggest: No plastic containers in microwave. No water bottles in freezer. No plastic wrap in microwave. A dioxin chemical causes cancer, especially breast cancer. Dioxins are highly poisonous to the cells of our bodies. Don’t freeze your plastic bottles with water in them as this releases dioxins from the plastic.

Recently, Edward Fujimoto, Wellness Program Manager at Castle Hospital, was on a TV program to explain this health hazard. He talked about dioxins and how bad they are for us. He said that we should not be heating our food in the microwave using plastic containers… This especially applies to foods that contain fat. He said that the combination of fat, high heat, and plastic releases dioxin into the food and ultimately into the cells of the body… Instead, he recommends using glass, such as Corning Ware, Pyrexor ceramic containers for heating food. You get the same results, only without the dioxin. So such things as TV dinners, instant ramen and soups, etc.,should be removed from the container and heated in something else. Paper isn’t bad, but you don’t know what is in the paper. It’s just safer to use tempered glass, Corning Ware, etc. He reminded us that a while ago some of the fast food restaurants moved away from the foam containers to paper. The dioxin problem is one of the reasons… Also, he pointed out that plastic wrap, such as Saran wrap, is just as dangerous when placed over foods to be cooked in the microwave. As the food is nuked, the high heat causes poisonous toxins to actually melt out of the plastic wrap and drip into the food. Cover food with a paper towel instead..



p/s: Got this from Nicole Ritchie's blog.Thanks Nicole.Pass around yah !

Heidi Montag sure is prolific, and i agree with Perez. I love her clothing line, no matter what people say about them being whorific, and I think she is one of the few stars who made their line affordable for people other than trust fund babies and that is so cool and nice. Her songs are amazing, and unlike Paris Hilton whose songs seems like not hers, Heidi sings ! Her songs are catchy and teeny bopping and I love to relax to her songs. You can check her on youtube or Perezhilton, more of his snarks anyway !

xoxo, Heidi you gain me as a fan.


Song List:
1. Overdosing
2.Your Love Found Me
3.Turn Ya Head
4. More is More

Fashion recycle.

My mom used to carry these bags to school. So, we should all save something cool from our heydays as they might be useful to our kids one day.;)


Picture from WhoWhatWear.